Normally, I like countdowns... I mean, who doesn't? Who doesn't like to see this?

My problem is this...
You know, the candles that are so hot that they melt the make-up of your face and induce hot flashes....
This is the countdown that I have dreaded for the last ten years.
Now, we don't need to discuss the specifics of what new decade I am entering, but needless to say, it's one that as a teenager I thought was way, way in the future, and the people that were in this decade were SO, SO old! So is it weird that there is such a big part of me that feels like I'm still 20?
I'm a little scared of this birthday, and I've never been scared of a birthday before. I've never felt like I was really starting to get old before. So, if you are looking for me on or around April 14th, you may have to look here...
and I'm afraid that if I get much older I'm going to look like this.